On the 22nd September 2013 a special little lady was born. My daughter Lottie who is now almost 4 months old. I cannot begin to tell you how my life has altered since she has arrived. Becoming a mom is an amazing experience, but its also quite daunting and nerve racking at times. Its has amazed me the advice that has been dispensed quite freely and sent my way. In my very stubborn way I have not always absorbed this advice straight away often going about things the hard way, but that's typical me as I always like to find out for myself.
I decided a while ago that I ought to try to write about how I feel so other new mom's out there or soon to be mom's can read what I write and maybe think ahhh there is hope, and phew I am not losing my grip on reality. My posts are not meant to be seen as guidance notes, nor a direction/map into motherhood. The things that I will write are from my own experience and are being shared as it will hopefully help me being quite cathartic whilst hopefully putting other mums (and maybe dads too) minds at rest. There are lots of posts and forums out there for help and advice but I felt at times giddy reading them getting conflicting messages or finding more things to worry about. Books and publications are great but at times I felt lectured at, the last thing you have time for when your bundle of joy arrives is to leaf through a manual. If only there were baby 'Haynes Manuals'. (I checked there are!!)
I sat thinking about my experiences over the last few months as I was feeding Lottie this evening before putting her to bed it was then that I decided to get on with it and record these thoughts, maybe if I became a mom for a second time further down the line this will help me my own set of crib notes!! So over the next few posts I am going to share with you some of my experiences to date and then go from there. I am but at the start of my learning curve.....make that parental rock face.
Someone shared this with me not long ago and it has stayed with me.
'after becoming a parent you realise that you will never have time alone again but the reality is you will never actually be alone again'
As my daughter held my finger this evening in her tiny hand it bought home how much she needs me and relies on me, I am merely her guide into life I can show her what I feel is right and how I would approach a situation but in time she will learn for herself and have her own free will, if she is anything like her mother she too will want to learn from experience.